Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Here's my story: My life is 'beyond blue' right now!
In the beginning I thought I was burnt out as I had been involved in so many projects: work, ministries, online businesses, home study education etc. I had lost motivation in doing things. When a friend suggested that I sounded depressed, and recommended for me to read the website of beyond blue - the national depression initiative - I pretty much self diagnosed my depression when I found out that I had most of the symptoms. This was confirmed by a specialist on Monday.
"Kitty, why are you feeling like this? That just doesn't go with your nature." A friend responded upon seeing my facebook status.
I'm always known to be a cheerful and happy person. It's puzzling to me and I am sure to many others that I would be suffering from depression.
It is generally accepted in the medical field that major depression is due to an imbalance in the chemistry of the brain. Neurotransmitters are chemical substances that carry electrical impulses from one nerve cell to another within the brain. They are released from one cell (the sender) and travel to the next cell (the receiver), where it is either absorbed or returned to the sender. The best understanding of clinical depression is that there are not enough neurotransmitters to ferry these messages across all the gaps.
This deficiency leads to a change in the person’s mood, thinking and behaviour. Serotonin and noradrenaline are two neurotransmitters that increase brain activity and improve mood. Antidepressant drugs help the brain to retain more of these substances and so stabilise the mental condition.
Call it what you will, the most agonizing fact of the condition is that pall of darkness laid upon the mind. Life and light seem beyond reach. Something intervenes: a gray mist of separation, a feeling of worthlessness, locked away from everything and everyone — including God at times.
Perhaps this is one way to distinguish between the “blues,” which afflict nearly everyone at one time or another, and the blackness of clinical depression. Clinically depressed patients cry, “My God, why have you forsaken me?”
Have you ever cried out to God in depression? If so, how did you cope with it?
My life purpose is to coach women toward their life purpose. I am also passionate about inspiring, encouraging and facilitating entrepreneurs to transform and grow rich in life's major areas: spiritual life, relationship, personal development, health and finance. I'm living and loving LIFE! I am a child of God, daughter, wife, sister and friend! I own an Unfranchise Business through Market Australia SHOP.COM www.kittycheng.com