Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Acceptance Poem

Life is a roller coaster. One day you think you're coping with life, then you hit a wave and you go down and come up again. The pain is there and you feel it ... and there is no escape, except in Jesus Christ, who is truly my hiding place.

I went through some 'ups and downs' this past week. Ups came from the love, friendship, encouragement, affirmation and gifts that many of my friends and family (locally and globally) gave me for my birthday these past few days. The down side started off by an unexpected email from a long-time-no-see brother in Christ, whom I led to the Lord about three years ago now. His emails outlined criticism and things that he didn't like about my personalities. Seriously, that really got me off guard! After reading his emails a few times, I couldn't help weeping for a while. Mind you I haven't cried for a long time. Then I started worrying about my medical condition. Am I seeing another episode / warning sign coming up again? I am thankful that we were able to reconcile through prayer and conversation through emails. And we forgave each other. That was such a wonderful feeling. Through it all, I praise the Lord for all these encounters. Romans 8:28 always applies =)

I have written a poem in my personal journal regarding my heart's journey. Hope to share it with you all:

I have learnt a lot from the past week.
I have learnt not to be so weak.
I have learnt to be strong and fight.
Fight for the skills to think right.
Nothing can ever be that bad.
It's okay to be sad.
I know that life is precious.
It should be highly cherished.
We should embrace it.
Although sometimes you feel that you hate yourself.
Deep within, you really love yourself.
Even if you reach over that emotional wall.
It still can be hard, no one said it would be easy.
It takes time to heal those wounds even if they make you feel queasy.
Love yourself first before loving another.
Above all that do not forget no other.
Accept yourself for who you are.
You are what you are.
No one can change that.
And that's a fact.
I was given a bookmark for my birthday,
which says:God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
Courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Life is full of challenges and I can accept that.
Sometimes I succeed for that I take off my hat.
Sometimes I fail but life's like that.
It's okay to be me.
Even though at times I feel I am not one, I am not two, but three.
I accept the feelings I have and the problems I face.
I am learning quickly how to rely on Jesus to give me his grace.


Keasty said...

Thanks for sharing your poem with us Kitty. Keep following JC and you'll be right!

Anonymous said...

Even though at times I feel I am not one, I am not two, but three.
I accept the feelings I have and the problems I face.
I am learning quickly how to rely on Jesus to give me his grace.

that's beautiful...

Corry said...

Hi Kitty,

Thank you for visiting the Prayer List site and leaving such a nice comment:-)

I am grateful you and your friend got to work things out and I liked your poem.

I admire your attitude to keep relying on our Savior!
2 Samuel 22:31
As for God, His way is perfect;The word of the LORD is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him.

I enjoyed reading your blog and I will drop in more often.

God's Grace.

Corry said...

Kitty, this is my main blog:-). Feel free to leave a prayer request or praise on the Prayer List anytime you like or need:-)

God's Grace.

Kitty Cheng said...

Thank you keasty, chalyz and corry for your encouragement. It was my pleasure to share the poem with you.

corry, would love to leave prayer requests on your prayer list. I will certainly drop into your main blog often.

forgiven said...

It's nice to see a Sis that is on the other side of the world. I like your poem and know what you mean. I have alot of thinks that are wrong with me , it keeps me in prayer.Keep praying He love you and care deeply about you.

Your Brother in Christ

Kc said...

Hi Ms Kitty. My pleasure to intermeet you. ;-)
Great blog. I think acceptance is the key that opens the door to change. Relationships are hard work and there's just no easy way is there? It's a comfort to me knowing that one day He'll wipe away our tears. I like your poem and I look forward to reading more of your work. ;-)

curious servant said...

Thank you for your prayers and kind comments on my blog. It was sweet of you and a help to me.

Kitty Cheng said...

forgiven, i'm always happy to meet blogger friends on the other side of the world too. I praise God for internet.

I agree that our 'wrongs' keep us in prayer. Thanks so much for your kind words.

Kitty Cheng said...

Thank you Mr Casey Kc..it's true that relationships are hard work, and I've often failed, yet they have taught me so much about myself, others and the Lord. I am thankful for that =)

Kitty Cheng said...

CS, you're soooo welcome. It's a privilege and pleasure to pray for you, and with you. God Bless!

Jayne said...

I love the fact that I can find a blog that brings me closer to Jesus and helps me on my spiritual journey!

Thank you for sharing your poem and for being part of the prayer list. You have a great talent for writing and God is using you well to share His word!

An Ordinary Christian said...

I read the previous post on BD. Thanks for referring me there. Thank you for the poem, and for your faith and encouragement. Jesus is great. Thanks for sharing.

Kitty Cheng said...

jcstormy, it's great being part of the prayer list...prayers always draw me closer to God and to His people. Thank you for your kind comments.

God Bless you, and may you continue to grow in the Lord.

Kitty Cheng said...

Andrea, I agree that Jesus is great - even though we are weak and fragile.

Thank you for YOUR friendship and encouragement too. It's been great 'walking' with you in prayers and sharing.