Acceptance Poem

Life is a roller coaster. One day you think you're coping with life, then you hit a wave and you go down and come up again. The pain is there and you feel it ... and there is no escape, except in Jesus Christ, who is truly my hiding place.

I went through some 'ups and downs' this past week. Ups came from the love, friendship, encouragement, affirmation and gifts that many of my friends and family (locally and globally) gave me for my birthday these past few days. The down side started off by an unexpected email from a long-time-no-see brother in Christ, whom I led to the Lord about three years ago now. His emails outlined criticism and things that he didn't like about my personalities. Seriously, that really got me off guard! After reading his emails a few times, I couldn't help weeping for a while. Mind you I haven't cried for a long time. Then I started worrying about my medical condition. Am I seeing another episode / warning sign coming up again? I am thankful that we were able to reconcile through prayer and conversation through emails. And we forgave each other. That was such a wonderful feeling. Through it all, I praise the Lord for all these encounters. Romans 8:28 always applies =)

I have written a poem in my personal journal regarding my heart's journey. Hope to share it with you all:

I have learnt a lot from the past week.
I have learnt not to be so weak.
I have learnt to be strong and fight.
Fight for the skills to think right.
Nothing can ever be that bad.
It's okay to be sad.
I know that life is precious.
It should be highly cherished.
We should embrace it.
Although sometimes you feel that you hate yourself.
Deep within, you really love yourself.
Even if you reach over that emotional wall.
It still can be hard, no one said it would be easy.
It takes time to heal those wounds even if they make you feel queasy.
Love yourself first before loving another.
Above all that do not forget no other.
Accept yourself for who you are.
You are what you are.
No one can change that.
And that's a fact.
I was given a bookmark for my birthday,
which says:God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
Courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Life is full of challenges and I can accept that.
Sometimes I succeed for that I take off my hat.
Sometimes I fail but life's like that.
It's okay to be me.
Even though at times I feel I am not one, I am not two, but three.
I accept the feelings I have and the problems I face.
I am learning quickly how to rely on Jesus to give me his grace.